The dynamic between Clary and Luke has to be one of my favourite things to watch on Shadowhunters, throughout the 3 seasons we seen their relationship develop from not only being allies but family too. Like Clary told Simon in Season 1, Luke is the only father she knows and loves. Also kudos to Kat and Isaiah for the amazing chemistry bringing the characters to life.
Like my favourite NBA team the Golden State Warriors who pushed forward into the finals after almost facing elimination during the western conference, I too am facing a positive comeback after having a confused and stressful past week.
Though it hasn’t affected my career, it was noticed by family and friends but after a casual conversation today with my boss, she noted that I am improving in my mannerisms and I am hoping this is a change.
I do not want to feel like this again because being bluntly honest with everyone who is reading this, it is bloody shit! I don’t want to stay angry and confused over someone, because negativity is ruining my normally positive, go lucky self. When I’m upset or pouty, people will notice it and I don’t like that feeling that everyone can see it.
My family and friends have been looking out for me though as well as my boss at work, she has been amazing in the one on one chats and my mum or younger sister are keeping me distracted by taking me out and dad just being his adorable self in offering hope when it seems so dismal at present.
I also started writing again since last night, I had hint a writer’s block because of my relationship status and I been trying to get back into it since I returned from Hawaii. It appears to have returned last night.
Pulling together my five likes for this week;
Already planning my holidays for next year- South Korea in February with the bestie and Japan in October possibly with my Aunt from New Zealand.
Drinks tonight with the team, celebrating a birthday and a farewell
Wreck it Ralph 2, Lego Movie 2 and How to tame your dragon 3 trailers were released this week! Yes cartoon movies give me strength >.>
Watching Ocean’s 8 in Gold class tomorrow with the mother dearest
Golden State Warriors are leading the finals 3-0, we only have one more game until we win!
I don’t like being a huge mix of emotions at the moment but I guess when a big chapter in your life ends and a new one is just beginning, it is prone to happen and it just depends on my mood of how long this will last.
I mean four years of a long distance relationship is such a long time. Yes we have ended and I had called it out since he was over here. The friend who I kept asking was she more than a friend turned out to be true and he tried to blame me for something I didn’t do, two days after he returned home.
I was confused and lost at what I had done wrong and tried to do everything I could to fix it, but you can’t fix someone who doesn’t want to be even in a call with you and you have better conversations with a brick wall. Now the feelings have changed from confused to disappointment and irritation.
Plus more questions now that we ended. What has he told his family back home to make it so easy for him to switch up his relationship? How long has this friend of his, been more than friend? My sister reckons he’s been going behind my back but I don’t think so.
While trying to deal with my mentality in it’s present state, I been weighing the pros and cons and cons are becoming more prominent the more I think about it over what has been going on during our time together.
I’m just fortunate to have a large support base in my family, local friends, work department, besties and international friends, without them I’d be a horrible mess.
Four days until my parents and I are flying to Hawaii for 2 weeks and despite the threat of volcano Kilauea going off on the Big island, so far we have no cancellations of our flight to either Honolulu or Maui.
We also had a recent scare, two nights ago of mum’s entropic heart giving her chest pains and she was taken to hospital. Thankfully she is back home and her usual hardworking self, I got home last night from work and she is sitting at her desk in the study already. I have been lazy with my writing this week and been either on Youtube or Netflix, I haven’t been going to bed early and I haven’t been sleeping well.
Long distance relationships can be difficult and I’m currently through a rough situation with my other half and figuring out where do we go from here. I want to keep fighting, but in all my years of dating online I am known to being stubborn and fighting for something or someone I love and believe in. Just wish he could see that through all my erratic explainations especially when my mind is so frazzled and scared of what’s going to happen to us.
Instead of doing positive likes this week and struggling to find something that is not repetitive, I decided to write my new bucket list for travelling since I have crossed off a couple of things from the list that I created when I was 12. I have been to Venice and ridden a gondala, been inside Versailles on the outskirts of Paris, bought my first (and only pair) of Christian Louboutin shoes in Waikiki, been inside St Peter’s Basilica in Rome, visited Kennedy Space Centre in Florida and seen a live volcano in Hawaii, now I have other things that I want to do in my travels.
Go to Japan! This has been no.1 since forever, I discussed the notion of going there with my mum’s younger sister, Aunt Heather and she said she wouldn’t mind going while also offering advice on what to do while over there. Apparently a lot of them speak really good English.
Glamping; I can’t do normal camping and my bestie Katie mentioned the idea. I looked it up in my country and there are some sites in Victoria. Probably wouldn’t go in winter months, too cold but the other seasons would be lovely. Just need someone to do it with.
Go to Alnwick Castle, I been to Leavesden studio for the Harry Potter tour but I want to go to real locations set in the film, the castle is one of them. Returning to UK!
Visit Hobbiton in the north island, New Zealand. This has been on my bucket list since I watched LOTR and Hobbit trilogy and it is not just one of the many locations in the north island that I wish to see, also reason to see my family again.
Stay in Santorini in the Greek islands, picturesque holiday island in the Mediterranean, yes please!
I have been offline for the past two weeks since February 24th because of the sole purpose that my boyfriend Brad was here in Australia and I took him around Sydney and slightly outside the basin. The first week went at an easy pace, he met my family at my 30th birthday party, it was Harry Potter theme and we then had my sister’s wedding the following weekend, Brad caught the garter too…
My whole family adores him and he can get along easily with anyone he meets, he even met my regular hairdressers and my favourite shop assistant at the vintage store Kitten D’amour. The second week we did more tourist outings in the city including Manly beach and Taronga Zoo but like all good things, it must all come to an end.
At 2:30pm in front of the gates of Sydney International airport, I said goodbye to my other half. Even now, 4hrs later and sitting down in my room where my bed is remade and all my plushies are back, the room still smells like him and my chest still aches. I asked one of my high school friends how did they do it with their now husband and she advised to keep looking into the future and our next reunion.
The next reunion will be in England when I go there next year, I thought I’d go in August when my parents fly to Canada but mum suggested I should go in January, to experience their winter and if I would be able to handle it if I moved over there. Still thinking about dates just for now, I’m nursing a sad heart.
I haven’t blogged in six days, whoops! I’m so sorry everyone.
I officially finished working the night shifts a week ago and since then had two days off and been working AM shifts. It is all prepping myself for the 9-5 job starting in the beginning of December. I am just grateful that I have six days off in between the hotels, it will give me time to relax and prepare for the new role.
The rest of my life has been same old, my pictures on Flickr are getting more recognition and though I’m still not going to dabble into Photoshop I am glad my unedited photos are still getting likes. On the writing front, my imagination has returned to what I used to have during my school days with new ideas and stories popping into my head at the most random of times, I just hope that I actually complete one of them, that would be a highlight for me. To finish a series or a short story.
Relationship news, my boyfriend will be booking his flight to come here end of February next year, next week. It is all happening and 2018 is already shaping up to be amazing for myself and my family.
Boyfriend is definitely coming to Sydney next year in March, so he’s been texting me every day to let me know about this >.> And it also means that discussion of what is going to happen in our future together is popping up in our every day conversation a lot more than I planned whether on my days off or after I finish work. He is set on not moving to Australia because he is comfortable in England, I don’t want to leave Oz because this is where my support network is and I’m assuming the same in his case too.
I did think about it tonight, well I have been thinking about it since he said he would not move here to Sydney that I would be the one moving to England but there have been several cons that have prevented me from thinking about that country as a permanent place of residence. I would happily go there for a year or two to experience what it be like and plenty of my girls have moved to other cities and countries for the sake of their man.
But I was balancing the cons with my boyfriend tonight over text and it’s still got me doubting.
Transportation is expensive! Travelling from suburbs into city
Living in the city is too expensive, previous experiences of mutual friends told me they barely had enough to eat!
The terrorism level, everyone knows about it, its on the news annually
Far from my family, I have cousin in London sure but everyone else is a 25hr flight away.
He and I will take more about it especially when he comes here for two weeks, but at the moment I am very lost.
Pacific Rim 2 is not being released until next year and it’s not focused on our badass Gipsy Danger duo Raleigh and Mako but can we appreciate them from the first film?? There was no kiss but you can’t bloody deny the chemistry between the two of them!
As the days creep closer and my parents and I are finalising our checklists and our packing, I’m just happy that I am already on annual leave after six days of work last week. Not that it wasn’t stressful, happy to say that my very last shift at work turned out to be quite pleasant with a lot of hugs and well wishing from my colleagues. I’m looking forward to travelling in business class, it is such a long flight to get up to Dubai alone.
Been organising with the boyfriend of what we are going to do together in the second week while in England, I know that the cat cafe is one thing I definitely want to experience even after finding out Sydney has its own cat cafe in the city. Mum has also asked Brad if he would like to join us on a trip down to Portsmouth, she is going there to meet her work friends but the train ride would be nice for my parents to find more about him.
I pre-ordered the Enchanted rose from Beauty and the Beast, also acts as bluetooth speaker
Family dinner with my family and my sister’s fiance’s family tonight, lots of laughs and good conversation
Getting keratin on my hair tomorrow, it means no more frizz!
Dollhouse DIY videos on Youtube are so relaxing, I have no idea why
Writing more, socialising in reality more like what I used to do before pixel universes took over
8 days can put a strain on your body and you can imagine how relieved I was when 11pm finally clocked over and I was happily leaving work last Friday for my weekend off! It is also not long now until I am away for a month and in Europe! I keep having dreams of flying business class would be like. Though I have done it before when going to Christchurch with mum, this longer trip will be worth the heavy dollars that my family and I paid.
Also can’t wait to meet my other half in London, if all goes well with him and I after our first official meeting in reality, he said he would fly down under for my sister’s wedding next year in March! Here is hoping everything goes smoothly.
Catch up dinner with Mei last night, I haven’t seen her in a month!
Crunchie hot choc, The Choc Pot invented it and its a subtle version of the monster milkshakes. Yum!
The original Disney Princess voice actresses are making a cameo in Wreck it Ralph 2!!
I lost another kilo, I just wish my body would stop fluctuating on itself
Binge watching Z nation on Netflix, that show I admit is better than TWD >.>
It is cold and raining outside but I am inside watching The Magic school bus on Netflix ^^; My mood is far more different compared to yesterday. One of my friends in our group chat known as the Hen Den broke up with her boyfriend, they have been on-off for about 3 or 4 times now but it seems now is a definite split. He turned from struggling boyfriend to being a jerk who doesn’t know how to treat women and only think with his groin. There is another cruder term for it but I am being classy about it on my blog.
Safe to say when my friend told me of her sad predicament, the entire group was mad and while trying to console her, we were also venting out our anger at this stupid boy for being a moron! I could go on but this isn’t under the venting sub title. Work was constant and my Assistant manager kept me busy today, it was Day 4/7 and I am also keeping an eye out on the weather in particular for Sunday.
As I said in my previous diary entry, Vivid has arrived in the city and I am hoping to check it out with the family on my days off. Unfortunately with the forecast of rain it doesn’t look like it is going to happen. Maybe we can all just go in for dinner and dessert? It is the long weekend afterall and everyone has this upcoming Monday off.