I have been offline for the past two weeks since February 24th because of the sole purpose that my boyfriend Brad was here in Australia and I took him around Sydney and slightly outside the basin. The first week went at an easy pace, he met my family at my 30th birthday party, it was Harry Potter theme and we then had my sister’s wedding the following weekend, Brad caught the garter too…
My whole family adores him and he can get along easily with anyone he meets, he even met my regular hairdressers and my favourite shop assistant at the vintage store Kitten D’amour. The second week we did more tourist outings in the city including Manly beach and Taronga Zoo but like all good things, it must all come to an end.
At 2:30pm in front of the gates of Sydney International airport, I said goodbye to my other half. Even now, 4hrs later and sitting down in my room where my bed is remade and all my plushies are back, the room still smells like him and my chest still aches. I asked one of my high school friends how did they do it with their now husband and she advised to keep looking into the future and our next reunion.
The next reunion will be in England when I go there next year, I thought I’d go in August when my parents fly to Canada but mum suggested I should go in January, to experience their winter and if I would be able to handle it if I moved over there. Still thinking about dates just for now, I’m nursing a sad heart.
I haven’t blogged in six days, whoops! I’m so sorry everyone.
I officially finished working the night shifts a week ago and since then had two days off and been working AM shifts. It is all prepping myself for the 9-5 job starting in the beginning of December. I am just grateful that I have six days off in between the hotels, it will give me time to relax and prepare for the new role.
The rest of my life has been same old, my pictures on Flickr are getting more recognition and though I’m still not going to dabble into Photoshop I am glad my unedited photos are still getting likes. On the writing front, my imagination has returned to what I used to have during my school days with new ideas and stories popping into my head at the most random of times, I just hope that I actually complete one of them, that would be a highlight for me. To finish a series or a short story.
Relationship news, my boyfriend will be booking his flight to come here end of February next year, next week. It is all happening and 2018 is already shaping up to be amazing for myself and my family.
Boyfriend is definitely coming to Sydney next year in March, so he’s been texting me every day to let me know about this >.> And it also means that discussion of what is going to happen in our future together is popping up in our every day conversation a lot more than I planned whether on my days off or after I finish work. He is set on not moving to Australia because he is comfortable in England, I don’t want to leave Oz because this is where my support network is and I’m assuming the same in his case too.
I did think about it tonight, well I have been thinking about it since he said he would not move here to Sydney that I would be the one moving to England but there have been several cons that have prevented me from thinking about that country as a permanent place of residence. I would happily go there for a year or two to experience what it be like and plenty of my girls have moved to other cities and countries for the sake of their man.
But I was balancing the cons with my boyfriend tonight over text and it’s still got me doubting.
- Transportation is expensive! Travelling from suburbs into city
- Living in the city is too expensive, previous experiences of mutual friends told me they barely had enough to eat!
- The terrorism level, everyone knows about it, its on the news annually
- Far from my family, I have cousin in London sure but everyone else is a 25hr flight away.
He and I will take more about it especially when he comes here for two weeks, but at the moment I am very lost.
As the days creep closer and my parents and I are finalising our checklists and our packing, I’m just happy that I am already on annual leave after six days of work last week. Not that it wasn’t stressful, happy to say that my very last shift at work turned out to be quite pleasant with a lot of hugs and well wishing from my colleagues. I’m looking forward to travelling in business class, it is such a long flight to get up to Dubai alone.
Been organising with the boyfriend of what we are going to do together in the second week while in England, I know that the cat cafe is one thing I definitely want to experience even after finding out Sydney has its own cat cafe in the city. Mum has also asked Brad if he would like to join us on a trip down to Portsmouth, she is going there to meet her work friends but the train ride would be nice for my parents to find more about him.
- I pre-ordered the Enchanted rose from Beauty and the Beast, also acts as bluetooth speaker
- Family dinner with my family and my sister’s fiance’s family tonight, lots of laughs and good conversation
- Getting keratin on my hair tomorrow, it means no more frizz!
- Dollhouse DIY videos on Youtube are so relaxing, I have no idea why
- Writing more, socialising in reality more like what I used to do before pixel universes took over
8 days can put a strain on your body and you can imagine how relieved I was when 11pm finally clocked over and I was happily leaving work last Friday for my weekend off! It is also not long now until I am away for a month and in Europe! I keep having dreams of flying business class would be like. Though I have done it before when going to Christchurch with mum, this longer trip will be worth the heavy dollars that my family and I paid.
Also can’t wait to meet my other half in London, if all goes well with him and I after our first official meeting in reality, he said he would fly down under for my sister’s wedding next year in March! Here is hoping everything goes smoothly.
- Catch up dinner with Mei last night, I haven’t seen her in a month!
- Crunchie hot choc, The Choc Pot invented it and its a subtle version of the monster milkshakes. Yum!
- The original Disney Princess voice actresses are making a cameo in Wreck it Ralph 2!!
- I lost another kilo, I just wish my body would stop fluctuating on itself
- Binge watching Z nation on Netflix, that show I admit is better than TWD >.>
It is cold and raining outside but I am inside watching The Magic school bus on Netflix ^^; My mood is far more different compared to yesterday. One of my friends in our group chat known as the Hen Den broke up with her boyfriend, they have been on-off for about 3 or 4 times now but it seems now is a definite split. He turned from struggling boyfriend to being a jerk who doesn’t know how to treat women and only think with his groin. There is another cruder term for it but I am being classy about it on my blog.
Safe to say when my friend told me of her sad predicament, the entire group was mad and while trying to console her, we were also venting out our anger at this stupid boy for being a moron! I could go on but this isn’t under the venting sub title. Work was constant and my Assistant manager kept me busy today, it was Day 4/7 and I am also keeping an eye out on the weather in particular for Sunday.
As I said in my previous diary entry, Vivid has arrived in the city and I am hoping to check it out with the family on my days off. Unfortunately with the forecast of rain it doesn’t look like it is going to happen. Maybe we can all just go in for dinner and dessert? It is the long weekend afterall and everyone has this upcoming Monday off.
Home now and about to go downstairs for dinner with my family but it has been a rather chill Sunday afternoon, I had my work Christmas party the first one I got to go to after 3 years working in the same place and it was a lot of fun and learned how to bowl on the green. Took one of my assistant managers home who is also training me to become a team leader. Staying positive and smiling lots today 😀
This week’s 5 likes;
- Joanna Lumley’s Japan- A show on ABC of the actress travelling in the land of the Rising Sun, I neeeddd to go!
- Barefoot bowling with work for our Christmas party today
- 3 days off now woohoo!
- A video sent from my drunk boyfriend telling his mates to say hi to me xD
- My IMVU avatar is pretty to my standards again
Song: Singing Towers of Darillium from Doctor Who
I decided to insert songs with my mood posts because they seem to accompany the emotions that are going through my head every time I write up in my blog. I have my usual stalkers so hello all don’t mind me I am chilling out after a PM shift and editting my next fashion tile which will be posted up tomorrow after my Day 6 at work 😀
Cannot wait for the 2 days off, this week seems to have drained me or perhaps that’s just me being hormonal along with internal conflict with the end of relationship issues…anyway! Deciding whether to continue levelling up on my Blade and Soul character or go on World of Warcraft and slaughter monsters with my warlock, I will always be chaos and destruction at heart 😛
I decided to end the trial with Drav I knew deep down that it wasn’t going to go well and I just be leading him on, he seems more invested in what we had going than I was. On the other hand for the few who I already told yes I been speaking to my former Dom again and yes we hang out if the time zones are aligned perfectly for us.
He has apologised for ending it abruptly and acting like a dick but we taking it quite slow and see where it takes us, I know a lot of my girls are concerned after the way he treated me and they should be but please let me do this on my own. I wish to see where it goes and I’m much chirpier than before (if you couldn’t tell already).
I had a random conversation with one of the girlies I know on Second Life in relation to the whole Daddydom/babygirl and Poly relationships that occur in world. Now many of us know that there is plenty of dodgy and fake people who are pretending to be something they not.
There are also plenty of vanilla kinksters wishing to dabble into BDSM then after a week think they are a qualified Dom/Domme. I don’t know for ages this whole section in the lifestyle of DD/bbg has made me feel queasy calling someone ‘Daddy’ and trying to understand its not meant to be incest or anything of that kind. Also one being polyamourous its not like that Buzz video said about it all being orgies and finding a comfortable point where no lovers are jealous of each others.
I just don’t know, how on Earth do you guys do it? To call one daddy so easily and for years possibly and to say you love deeply and fully more than one person…how?
Aum managed to get his Friday off so when I finished work last night he was already awake when I got home. It was amaze! We went shopping on Second Life at both The Men’s Department and ROMP- being members of Elysion lounge we had early access compared to everyone else who doesn’t get entry until 12pm SLT, he even got a new crisp suit by Deadwool it looks gorgeous on him! 😀
I am very thankful and happy to have someone like him in my life, that regardless of being an ocean apart and the time zones being a pain in the bum, we still managed to stay connected daily and the weekends just become more special as we get to have each other’s company for the two days. I’m proud to be his submissive ❤
Though today is Day 6 of work and I got one more day left before I finally get my weekend I have to admit that I’m quite content with my reality right now especially tonight. After last night’s argument and conclusion with my dear boyfriend Ian, I know now that I haven’t been paying attention to him in what he deserves and he shouldn’t be dealing with that from me.
Regardless of the fact he did not come here last month and we had to put it on hold until hopefully October (I told him to come here for my mum’s birthday) we manage to save and mend our relationship mostly for my part. I will try and give him more attention than be so caught up and focused on the pixel worlds, mum is warning that I should cease in my SL shopping 😡
Work wise, I have been doing the PM shift with my Assistant front office manager Tash, I’m quite happy to remark that for the past 2 months I have been enjoying work more and more. Not just because I been winning with the enrollments for our hotel but my relationships with my front office bosses has improved tenfold. I actually enjoy going to work now not with a sense of dread 😀