I have sealed myself off Second Life for the past two weeks, I made an announcement and discreetly vanished. And truth be told, it feels really good. Finding myself being able to go outside more or find my imagination giving me motivation to continue my many stories has been an amazing feeling and realisation that I prefer reality more than virtual.
Though I have recently been logging onto IMVU, the very first virtual world I joined back in 2008, I am on it to socialise with my group of friends who occassionally log on but are not on it for long hours upon end because we all have busy realities to be part of. This casual dabbling into pixels is better for me than what I used to do and I’m glad I managed to detach myself from an addictive pattern.
Because I have removed myself from worrying what others in Second Life think or stopped caring on how I act and happy to just be the real deal, there is less stress around my life. I am also doing this for the sake of my long distance relationship, he decided to remove himself from the virtual universe too and is feeling much better because of it.
Since I have done this massive change too, I am already feeling the results of a life without toxic personalities.
I am tired because I didn’t get much sleep last night (body decided to wake up at 4am for no apparent reason), I am fangirling because Disney dropped both a new teaser for Avengers: Infinity War and the Han Solo standalone film. I am also annoyed beyond anything else because of the behaviour of my younger sister. Overall I am a mix of emotions tonight but the positive is outweighing the negative thankfully.
My 30th is this upcoming Saturday, not that I can really forget it. My work mates are ensuring I’m still remembering it especially since I share the day with my manager. I can no longer make excuses of being in my twenties anymore, I will be in that thirties age gap and I’m not sure what to think on that. I don’t feel any older except of course when it comes to my health and the dire need to change my lifestyle ASAP.
But I still love the same things I enjoyed when I was 20, the only difference between me being 30 and a decade ago is that I like to believe I have wisened up to what life has thrown at me, I have thrived in difficult circumstances and now prospering into a new chapter that I can happily call mine.
I been working AM shifts the past two days and will be working AM again tomorrow on my birthday, no I do not feel anywhere close to 29 and still feel like a hyper 21 year old girl 😛 I have also been going for walks with my mum and her work friend the past 3 nights, the back of my knees hurt when I wake up! Takes a bit of stretching before I’m ready to tackle the day, our weather down under says starting from tomorrow it’s going to be another 3 days of 40 degree weather. Eww!
This week’s 5 likes;
- My DokiDoki crate for this month arrived yesterday
- Housekeeping manager brought mini donuts to work today, so nom
- My hair when blow dried goes past my chest now, didn’t realise how long it is!
- One of my VIP guests has a birthday reminder on his phone for tomorrow
- All my recent Flickr uploads have been surpassing 20 favs each 😀
Enjoying this 24hr break between my AM and PM shifts, it was so busy working the morning 7am-3pm at work the past two days because we have a lot of conferences and corporate groups staying with us. They check in for one night and leave the next day it also means no tour groups so no easy check out of a zero balance. I survived though and got just two more days of work left before I participate in yet another walk/jog with my mum this weekend.
This week’s 5 likes;
- Early evening drives heading up north to my favourite hangout by the river
- I got 2 name mentions from guests in our hotel surveys
- “The Hen Den” my Facebook group chat with International girl friends
- Making a list of Halloween movies to watching leading up to the 31st
- My Flickr is 20 followers away from dinging 900 😀
No vices tonight other than the usual vents that you all know about or I have already clucked to my friends about, plus my brain is tired and can’t be bothered to make an opinion. Good night ❤
I got another proper weekend off which meant tonight I got to hang out with Lana again in the city though mum had a dinner with her side of the family at our local RSL. She wanted me to come but I wanted to tell my bestie about where I am up to in regards to my character Ame Hayato and her stories. It was also a very hot today today and is going to be warm tomorrow, stayed cool but I do not like it when we have bushfires whether back burning/controlled or suddenly done by some stupid person who did not put out their cigarette correctly while driving.
This week’s 5 likes;
- My Front desk, the entire crew- we had no boss but we survived and had fun doing it
- Shadowhunters Season 2 trailer! I stayed up until 4am earlier this week, so worth it ❤
- Character discussion over Japanese dinner with Mei tonight
- I cleaned out my desk’s shelves of paperwork and re-did my many notebooks
- My pictures on my flickr are getting 15+ favs this week 😀
No vices tonight despite mum annoying me and trying to guilt trip me in not attending her birthday dinner, I already had dinner with her and the rest of our family on her actual birthday! Boss lady was kind enough to give me AM shift on that day and PM shift the next day so I didn’t have to worry on an early bedtime.
Day 3 of work today and so far nothing too dramatic going on at work and I even got time to continue my story board for my Lotus Hexad trilogy. Counting down still until I get to watch Suicide Squad as well as flying out to Hawaii, need to start packing for that soon.
Second Life facebook and people’s statuses though, what irks me is the girls who are known for having many men complain about how they can’t last in any sort of relationship maybe because word spreads of how many males you have conquered and its not attractive at all. I wonder have they ever thought about this, not every bloke likes used goods.
I haven’t started my trilogy yet either and I keep adding more details into my little notebook, I have the opening chapter ready just need to motivate myself to type it all. Anyway, these are my five likes;
- How to cake it youtube channel, Yolanda’s cakes are amaze
- Tom Hiddleston is back in Australia for Thor 3 😀
- Cadbury crunchie block
- The patience and understanding from my boyfriend
- Ever After High’s latest Netflix movie: Epic Winter
I have been a writer since I was in primary school and then been a roleplayer in the online worlds since 2007, it has been both my creative space and my escape when reality is too hard. Over the years, friends and acquaintances have complimented my work and asked have I considered being a writer as a career. I did dwell on it in Yr 11 while still in high school when my best friend and I were doing random collaborations of stories together.
Unfortunately getting to be the next Jane Austen or JK Rowling is very hard for any wannabe writer so I decided to go logically, moving through jobs and career paths until hotels of where I am today. It wasn’t until yesterday while on front desk, my Assistant manager and mentor into being a team leader got a brief read of my Warcraft stories on this blog and it had left her stuttering and almost speechless!
I never thought I would have someone who enjoyed my story and someone who was outside the fantasy world, pixel lands and fellow roleplayers. Someone who is more in reality and never heard of World of Warcraft. She had stated after reading the first two paragraphs that I was in the wrong industry and should consider making my writing into a serious career. It had always been a dream career but only the lucky ones can get successful with the publishers.
Still it left a warm feeling in my chest especially on such a cold day and left me living in that moment and realising that despite my short stories that I post in this blog, I still have that creative talent inside of me 😀
A lot has happened around the world this week in both tragedy and surprise on a personal level, it has also been my four days off and I am back to work tomorrow. I got to watch both Warcraft and Finding Dory on my days off, both excellent and entertaining to watch in their own levels. Warcraft was reaching to the WoW gamer in me and seeing Azeroth come to life while Dory was seeing a movie get a sequel done right after 13 years.
Did a couple of shopping as well which is kinda normal for me every week but I need to ease up to build my resources again especially if I’m aiming for Europe next year. Sadness is surrounding Orlando as the world knows but hope and love will stay love within the LGBT community, I know that we will continue and hopefully the Americans can curb their gun control. As a fangirl with a hopeless celebrity crush I am mourning that Tom Hiddleston is making out with Taylor Swift and torn inside.
Other than thinking he is the real life Disney Prince and Bees knees and thinking she makes great music and a sweetheart to the fans, but he is taken and no longer available, I know he’s way above my level and couldn’t ever think of meeting him in the future but still- its my dream hubby no more.
After deciding to restart the Ame Hayato Chronicles as well as continue writing up the many random stories featuring my human warlock Andais Lu, I have realised after the two days since I posted something in this blog I haven’t done anything yet. Call it procrastinating at its finest, all the ideas are there in my head and ready to be written into a great short story and yet I still haven’t done it. Don’t worry it will happen soon, after I get inspired to do my next fashion tile for Second Life.
In other real life news I am really sick of this back burning that our fire brigades have been doing up in our mountains to prepare us for next Summer because we get severe bushfires. Don’t they realise we need a break from all this smoke or our air quality will be that of Shanghai! x.x