I forgot to make a Luci note in my blog on the 13th May that I was going to be away for two weeks with the parents. I am typing this up in the club lounge of my hotel in Waikiki, Honolulu, Hawaii! We have been here for the past week and it has been an amazing trip so far to just keep my head clear and to re-think while enjoying the sun and all that shopping, yes please!
Though my shopping hasn’t been too bad, I think it is because I am logically analysing each item rather than splurge buying and realising that I barely wear it. I am getting a bit of a tan and the past 3 days we trekked through Maui around rainforests, mud and seeing majestic waterfalls. Got back to Waikiki yesterday and this whole week is relaxing in the sun and checking out the stores.
Last night I raided H&M down the road from my hotel and today I am wearing one of the dresses I bought, bestie Katie from New York says I look fabulous, but that girl is always biased. I will see all of you again when I am back in cold Sydney, the weather back home makes me glad I am in sunny Hawaii!
Four days until my parents and I are flying to Hawaii for 2 weeks and despite the threat of volcano Kilauea going off on the Big island, so far we have no cancellations of our flight to either Honolulu or Maui.
We also had a recent scare, two nights ago of mum’s entropic heart giving her chest pains and she was taken to hospital. Thankfully she is back home and her usual hardworking self, I got home last night from work and she is sitting at her desk in the study already. I have been lazy with my writing this week and been either on Youtube or Netflix, I haven’t been going to bed early and I haven’t been sleeping well.
Long distance relationships can be difficult and I’m currently through a rough situation with my other half and figuring out where do we go from here. I want to keep fighting, but in all my years of dating online I am known to being stubborn and fighting for something or someone I love and believe in. Just wish he could see that through all my erratic explainations especially when my mind is so frazzled and scared of what’s going to happen to us.
Instead of doing positive likes this week and struggling to find something that is not repetitive, I decided to write my new bucket list for travelling since I have crossed off a couple of things from the list that I created when I was 12. I have been to Venice and ridden a gondala, been inside Versailles on the outskirts of Paris, bought my first (and only pair) of Christian Louboutin shoes in Waikiki, been inside St Peter’s Basilica in Rome, visited Kennedy Space Centre in Florida and seen a live volcano in Hawaii, now I have other things that I want to do in my travels.
- Go to Japan! This has been no.1 since forever, I discussed the notion of going there with my mum’s younger sister, Aunt Heather and she said she wouldn’t mind going while also offering advice on what to do while over there. Apparently a lot of them speak really good English.
- Glamping; I can’t do normal camping and my bestie Katie mentioned the idea. I looked it up in my country and there are some sites in Victoria. Probably wouldn’t go in winter months, too cold but the other seasons would be lovely. Just need someone to do it with.
- Go to Alnwick Castle, I been to Leavesden studio for the Harry Potter tour but I want to go to real locations set in the film, the castle is one of them. Returning to UK!
- Visit Hobbiton in the north island, New Zealand. This has been on my bucket list since I watched LOTR and Hobbit trilogy and it is not just one of the many locations in the north island that I wish to see, also reason to see my family again.
- Stay in Santorini in the Greek islands, picturesque holiday island in the Mediterranean, yes please!
When reality is too much, I run away into virtual and fantasy because it is the only thing that is stable and where my imagination can fly without concern.
That has been my thought pattern since last Friday, my moods come and go in great highs and terrible lows. I am back on Second Life, taking pictures in between my story writing too. The above picture is in Backdrop city and it was after I had seen the film Ready Player One, I found a gamer setting and was inspired to take a pic with my Moon bunnies by Half-deer. Top is Epoch, hair is Truh, garter is Dirty Stories, harness is Cynful.
This was the first photo I took when I returned to Second Life after a 1.5 month-ish break and though I do not get any high favourites like I used to do, I still have fun when the right spark smacks into me and gives me an idea for a photo. I am wearing Runaway hair, the bikini is by Vincue, earrings are Random Matter and the pose is Foxcity as always. I love to take photos inside my cottage, a lot of my acquaintances in-world have complimented at how pink and cute it is, when there is darkness brighten up a room!
I love the above photo and I think it’s because I surrounded myself in not only a very pink scene but I have groups of sleeping kittens around my avatar and bootchi’s can make anyone’s day better. It is is medically proven that in the company of a feline, you feel more relaxed and less stressed. Maybe that is why my Skitty has been in my room every evening before I go to bed. My outfit is purely made by Giz Seorn and bought at the latest Uber round.
Backdrops that are made by the designers in-world help me in a lot of ways, it saves me from hunting down picturesque sims for a photo, I can rez them on my land without being disturbed by others and they are usually really pretty backgrounds that can go well with my outfit. The above background is made by Foxcity, she has been making a lot of backdrops with her bento poses lately and I have been happily selecting my favourite ones. Dress is Candydoll, hair is Dela, necklace is Bauhaus movement and my Meowl is by Hextraordinary.
I am sitting at my desk at work typing this out while literally waiting for the next 30mins until I finish my shift at 7pm. I did the 11am to 7pm shift today to help my colleague Jay who needed to be with her family, I don’t mind doing this time to be honest.
I get to have a two hour sleep in from my usual 6am wake up, I can relax and enjoy the morning sun before work and then when I finish work its dinner time so I’ll usually head into Chinatown to get food. Friday finishes at 7pm are the best because every week we have the night markets open, so pork buns and dumplings yes please!
My mum also reminded me last night that we have only nine days until we are flying to Hawaii again on Mother’s Day, it also made me realise that I have yet to pack my suitcase, whoops! Last time I was in Hawaii was two years ago and I had the best time! Not only did I get a healthy tan, I got my first pair of Louboutin sandals, tried Godiva’s choc coated Oreos, shopped a lot in Hot Topic and Kate Spade, experienced the amazing Polynesian cultural centre, climbed Diamond Head and went to Pearl Harbour.
Going with the parents as always, even at 30 I still have a blast with them and I don’t care what others think on that note. I will start the packing tomorrow, yay for the weekend! and TGIF!
I have been procrastinating in continuing book 1 of my Seven Realms trilogy, don’t get me wrong I have the scenes play out in my head before and after work when I have my soundtrack playlist blasting into my ears. But when it comes to writing the next chapter and written in a way that captures an audience where the genre is vastly populated and full of amazing authors who have wider expanses of imagination than I, it can be difficult…
Because of my procrastination and also my OCD of colour when it comes to my personal Instagram (I have deleted and re-shared photos of memories this past week, I think I need help in controlling this) I have been diverting from writing and wound up making outfits on IMVU or new Sailor Senshi/scouts on Dolldivine.com. I also can you believe it, broke my break of being off Second Life and logged on this afternoon to take photos, another creative outlet of mine.
For the past four years, I have attended this event in-world called Fantasy Faire and it is a fundraiser for cancer, it is also very popular and successful for raising enough funds to go to the American Cancer society. The people are the same and I refuse to go to clubs where there are many people, I have no time for toxic environments because these people who live online, will not ever change unless it is apparently life-changing.
On the side I have also started writing an anime style story with episode titles instead of chapters, featuring the new characters that I created on Dolldivine.com, my leading character is Sailor Lumiere or Hina-Ai Ryuuchi, a simple housekeeper but also a soldier for love and justice who also utilises the power of the Moon, but only a sliver of it. I have written Episode 1 already and thinking of ideas for the next episode while also trying to motivate myself to write Chapter 10 for Book 1 of my trilogy.
See what I mean? My brain is scattered and OCD/ADHD is killing me when it comes to colour on my social media. Maybe I should take a dose of that rescue remedy or something to help me focus, it is amazing that I managed to stay focus at work with all that is going on around me and in my brain.
Since I been writing more of my trilogy (I finally got book titles for each last night!) I have also been changing what I been sharing on my blog, the pictures that I had commissioned on Second Life, I have minimised and I have also deleted my Luci Logs facebook page.
I decided that with all these positive changes that I am making happen in my life to become more reality than virtual, I did not have to rely on likes and favourites from the internet. That I would post things that I would enjoy and not just do it for the sake of gaining more followers, perfect example of that is my Flickr, I stopped posting favourites because I no longer log on Second Life.
Am I sad that I am not getting anymore followers, not at all I had reached my achievement of gaining 1000 and that was a massive highlight for me two years ago. Now with encouragement I’m focusing on my old hobby that I used to love doing in high school- story writing. The Seven realms trilogy is getting a lot of support from my two besties Mei and Katie and I’m thankful that I am not having any recent writers block to keep writing the story on gaining more ideas for book 3, I hadn’t finished the note form for that yet. Whoops!
I got my cousin’s 40th birthday tonight and we are heading into the city, the bar we are going to is Asian ville so at least the family and I will be blending in with the rest of the crowd. I’m just lookin forward to spending a night with my cousins, a girls night out!
I have sealed myself off Second Life for the past two weeks, I made an announcement and discreetly vanished. And truth be told, it feels really good. Finding myself being able to go outside more or find my imagination giving me motivation to continue my many stories has been an amazing feeling and realisation that I prefer reality more than virtual.
Though I have recently been logging onto IMVU, the very first virtual world I joined back in 2008, I am on it to socialise with my group of friends who occassionally log on but are not on it for long hours upon end because we all have busy realities to be part of. This casual dabbling into pixels is better for me than what I used to do and I’m glad I managed to detach myself from an addictive pattern.
Because I have removed myself from worrying what others in Second Life think or stopped caring on how I act and happy to just be the real deal, there is less stress around my life. I am also doing this for the sake of my long distance relationship, he decided to remove himself from the virtual universe too and is feeling much better because of it.
Since I have done this massive change too, I am already feeling the results of a life without toxic personalities.
I have been offline for the past two weeks since February 24th because of the sole purpose that my boyfriend Brad was here in Australia and I took him around Sydney and slightly outside the basin. The first week went at an easy pace, he met my family at my 30th birthday party, it was Harry Potter theme and we then had my sister’s wedding the following weekend, Brad caught the garter too…
My whole family adores him and he can get along easily with anyone he meets, he even met my regular hairdressers and my favourite shop assistant at the vintage store Kitten D’amour. The second week we did more tourist outings in the city including Manly beach and Taronga Zoo but like all good things, it must all come to an end.
At 2:30pm in front of the gates of Sydney International airport, I said goodbye to my other half. Even now, 4hrs later and sitting down in my room where my bed is remade and all my plushies are back, the room still smells like him and my chest still aches. I asked one of my high school friends how did they do it with their now husband and she advised to keep looking into the future and our next reunion.
The next reunion will be in England when I go there next year, I thought I’d go in August when my parents fly to Canada but mum suggested I should go in January, to experience their winter and if I would be able to handle it if I moved over there. Still thinking about dates just for now, I’m nursing a sad heart.
I am tired because I didn’t get much sleep last night (body decided to wake up at 4am for no apparent reason), I am fangirling because Disney dropped both a new teaser for Avengers: Infinity War and the Han Solo standalone film. I am also annoyed beyond anything else because of the behaviour of my younger sister. Overall I am a mix of emotions tonight but the positive is outweighing the negative thankfully.
My 30th is this upcoming Saturday, not that I can really forget it. My work mates are ensuring I’m still remembering it especially since I share the day with my manager. I can no longer make excuses of being in my twenties anymore, I will be in that thirties age gap and I’m not sure what to think on that. I don’t feel any older except of course when it comes to my health and the dire need to change my lifestyle ASAP.
But I still love the same things I enjoyed when I was 20, the only difference between me being 30 and a decade ago is that I like to believe I have wisened up to what life has thrown at me, I have thrived in difficult circumstances and now prospering into a new chapter that I can happily call mine.
Another end of the work week has arrived and though I do not have anything planned for this weekend, I am glad it is here. We have been busy at work this week but the weather has been cooler than anticipate and I’m thankful we had it compared to next week which has a forecast of in the thirties. Eww!
I also have a work party that is occurring on February 1st but I am unsure whether to attend or not. Only because it falls on a week night and its from 6pm to 10pm and I still have work the following morning. Decisions, decisions! I would love to go as its any chance to socialise with my work peers and there is a theme for the event: Nautical. Any excuse to dress up for it as well but the cons that go against it is that its straight after work, I would have to bring an extra bag of clothes and lug it with me on the bus home, and I cannot stay until 10pm because my bus finishes at 7:30pm.
I have been writing a lot after work too, my longest story so far has now reached over 220 pages, that is a milestone in my entire writing history. My stories never reach this long let alone have over 30,000 words. I am half-way through this book.
I am in a bit of an off mood since I woke up this morning though it is getting better being in the positive environment of work and chatting to my international friends on Facebook on the way into work. I think two big reasons why I’m feeling aggravated is partially because a bloody thunderstorm woke me up early this morning.
I didn’t check what time it was but according to my colleagues it had started at 4am, I must have been light sleeping because usually storms do not wake me up. I hope I will not have my 2pm crash from the lack of sleep.
The other reason is the need for personal space even on a bus that is packed to the front because all the other corporates are returning to work this week. There is one particular man who has sat next to me before and has a tendency to doze off and therefore leaning on me.
I don’t mind taking public transport at all as long as I have some space between myself and the passenger beside me. But there is always a certain group of men that do not know this term, I physically have to put my arm down and slightly push them away if they get too close.
I mean really, just because we are squished like sardines, does not mean they have to completely compact to the point that is too awkward and you can’t move. Not all the passengers are like this thankfully but lack of sleep and passengers did not give me a good morning. The rain has stopped outside and I’m hoping for an uneventful Tuesday.
I had forgotten how fun family parties can be when you are there for the entire evening and not rocking up at the last minute like I was doing for the past seven years. My four day weekend is coming to an end and it has been amazing. 3/4 days were parties with either side of my parents families and I experienced my first ‘boodle’ which is where all the food is laid out along a table covered in banana leaves and you eat with your hands. It’s a Filo tradition. I couldn’t do it, well I did but not how the rest of my family could and I even attempted to use two skewers as chopsticks, that failed..
Christmas night was less eventful but by no means less fun, we played Articulate on the dining table. It’s a game where you have to describe the word on the card without saying it’s name and you’re under a timer. I realise that my trivia knowledge is quite limited and I do not know the world as much as I thought I did.
I binge watched Stranger Things in two days (thank you Netflix!) and I will not watch that show again at night, didn’t realise it also has quite a few spooky creatures that had me fast forwarding those particular scenes. I adore Mike and Eleven, they are so young and pure but adorable as a couple! The conspiracy theories behind the town of Hawkins had me thinking a lot but it was a good series and I’ll be one of those fans eagerly waiting for Season 3.
Boxing Day (today) I avoided the shops until the afternoon and instead spending my evening listening to my music on Itunes and browsing tumblr and writing a segment into one of my four main stories that I have saved on my laptop. I also revamped my tumblr layout, it needed a change after so long. Back to work tomorrow but it is only for 3 days then I got another 3 days off because of New Years day, yayy for working hotel reservations!