I am tired because I didn’t get much sleep last night (body decided to wake up at 4am for no apparent reason), I am fangirling because Disney dropped both a new teaser for Avengers: Infinity War and the Han Solo standalone film. I am also annoyed beyond anything else because of the behaviour of my younger sister. Overall I am a mix of emotions tonight but the positive is outweighing the negative thankfully.
My 30th is this upcoming Saturday, not that I can really forget it. My work mates are ensuring I’m still remembering it especially since I share the day with my manager. I can no longer make excuses of being in my twenties anymore, I will be in that thirties age gap and I’m not sure what to think on that. I don’t feel any older except of course when it comes to my health and the dire need to change my lifestyle ASAP.
But I still love the same things I enjoyed when I was 20, the only difference between me being 30 and a decade ago is that I like to believe I have wisened up to what life has thrown at me, I have thrived in difficult circumstances and now prospering into a new chapter that I can happily call mine.
I have been all over the place since yesterday, a lot has been going on leading up to my big trip and the event that affected me the most yesterday morning was when my beloved boss told me that she had resigned from being our manager and was moving into the city and changing hotel chains. Needless to say I was devastated, I even cried to one of my assistant managers over this news.
Though my boss has only been here for year and a half and I know in her new role she will do amazing things, she has been like a mum figure to me at work and encouraged to keep being the best person I can be. She has encouraged me to apply for other hotels, other roles having noticed my restleness here in my current role and knows what I want in my career. She will finish up when I am still on my holiday but promised me that my current duty managers will keep me in the loop of who our new boss will be. I am just going to miss her so much!
In other news, it is six more day until I am boarding a plane and flying to Dubai with the parents, I told my best friend it won’t hit me until the night before when I have to stay up before our 2:30am pick up.
We are half-way through the absence of my parents and I only told my colleague at work and my other half picked it up during the skype calls and hanging out on Second Life that I do not function well in a lonely house. My sister has recently become a single lady and goes out every night and doesn’t come home until 2-3am. I am quite thankful I have Skitty in my house and international conversation with my friends around the world because I would go nuts without companionship.
It is a very human thing to have the need for company, though I barely interact with my family when we all home unless it is dinner time or going out to a party (when I’m not working that is) it is a nice feeling to know they are there under the same roof doing their own thing. Coming home to a dark house and only hearing the whinging meows of my ginger is rather lonely.
I decided to end the trial with Drav I knew deep down that it wasn’t going to go well and I just be leading him on, he seems more invested in what we had going than I was. On the other hand for the few who I already told yes I been speaking to my former Dom again and yes we hang out if the time zones are aligned perfectly for us.
He has apologised for ending it abruptly and acting like a dick but we taking it quite slow and see where it takes us, I know a lot of my girls are concerned after the way he treated me and they should be but please let me do this on my own. I wish to see where it goes and I’m much chirpier than before (if you couldn’t tell already).