I don’t like being a huge mix of emotions at the moment but I guess when a big chapter in your life ends and a new one is just beginning, it is prone to happen and it just depends on my mood of how long this will last.
I mean four years of a long distance relationship is such a long time. Yes we have ended and I had called it out since he was over here. The friend who I kept asking was she more than a friend turned out to be true and he tried to blame me for something I didn’t do, two days after he returned home.
I was confused and lost at what I had done wrong and tried to do everything I could to fix it, but you can’t fix someone who doesn’t want to be even in a call with you and you have better conversations with a brick wall. Now the feelings have changed from confused to disappointment and irritation.
Plus more questions now that we ended. What has he told his family back home to make it so easy for him to switch up his relationship? How long has this friend of his, been more than friend? My sister reckons he’s been going behind my back but I don’t think so.
While trying to deal with my mentality in it’s present state, I been weighing the pros and cons and cons are becoming more prominent the more I think about it over what has been going on during our time together.
I’m just fortunate to have a large support base in my family, local friends, work department, besties and international friends, without them I’d be a horrible mess.
Everything happens for a reason and pain is fleeting. Re-blogging three outfits from my alternate universe, all casual but keeping to the same theme as the previous fashion post of pink and black colour.
They all bring a personal touch for me as each has something featured in reality;
Seasoned Traveller: I love going to the airport whether it is personally going on a holiday with my parents or picking up family who have landed from overseas, there is always an exciting energy in any airport that I go to. My alternate self would be travelling a lot because of the industry that she works in. The only thing that is designer in this outfit is the heels belonging to Christian Louboutin. I also have travelled Emirates business class and it is divine!
Brit Chic: After being in London for 12 days this past September, I enjoyed it thoroughly and I would return there again and again if I had the money and time. My alternate universe self would have no problem flying there especially since her own celebrity boyfriend is British too. The whole outfit is feminine and cute with designer items such as the Valentino pink sandals, Burberry perfume and Gucci statement necklace. An ice-cream with two churros is a favourite snack to eat while walking around.
Bludger: This LOTD is chilled out and in the comfort of my alternate self’s home in Los Angeles when she is not travelling or working. I own a pair of the unicorn slippers that are featured in this set and could see myself drinking miso soup in an oversized jumper and short shorts while brainstorming ideas for my next fantasy novel. There is nothing couture in this outfit but the make-up featured are made by Anna Sui.
Parents and I are flying back to Sydney tomorrow morning, it is an early flight around 7am I believe and we are skipping a day completely and landing around 5pm on Monday evening, time zones I tell you have multiple ways of being a complete pain in the ass, there is more cons to pros when it comes to flying across the globe. I don’t want to go home but at the same time I do.
I will be very happy to be reunited with my Skitty again, though I will be given the cold treatment for the rest of the night until he realises that he still loves me and that my younger sister is leaving him (again). I will also be excited to see my Reservations team again, I miss the singing, the random chatter and how efficient we are, I am ready to tackle my work and get back to business.
Vivid has also started back home, as readers know who have followed me for years, I go to this light and sound festival every year with my parents. The first two years was with my bestie Lana but afterwards its with mum and dad. We are looking to go next month as family from New Zealand will be coming over to celebrate my aunt (mum’s big sister) 60th birthday! So many milestones occurring within my family.
The five likes I will be sharing this time are the highlights of my two week holiday;
- Shirokiya street village in Ala Moana shopping centre; It feels like I am in Japan, that I am not in an American state and Japan is still no.1 in my bucket list so this place under the huge mall was a lovely escape every time we went.
- I got to see two turtles, on our drive to the windward side yesterday even though the waves were dangerous, we spotted two turtles swimming in the ocean.
- All the shopping! I didn’t splurge like I did in 2016 and was quite logical with my spending this year but the purchases I’m excited to wear especially the winter clothes
- Godiva coated Oreos, these decadent dark chocolate biscuits are AMAZE and I can’t get them back home in Australia, so I’m savouring each cookie
- Beating my record going up Diamond Head, I know I’m fitter than 2 years ago but climbing up the crater this past week just proved it to me.
I got a new set for you all in between working the first week of my 9-5 job, so far the past two days though it has just been induction has been amazing, learning a whole higher calibre of hotel service. Though I am no longer facing the front desk, I am still with the guests over the phone in Reservations.
This collection of three new outfits have two based in Japan, because I would travel there a lot and the other one is a private outing away from the crowds- a green retreat.
Getaway: There is no actual location for this place, it is several but I was inspired by the Spring time in the northern hemisphere and a forest that isn’t too hot or too cold, just right for a small, intimate picnic for alternate self and her celebrity boyfriend. Somewhere away from the crowds where it can be just them in nature. The ankle frilly socks and candy pink cardigan are my favourite additions to this LOTD, it is very feminine and whimsical. Also the small jelly is a return to my childhood, I loved eating them.
Trip to Japan: The Land of the Rising sun is still no.1 in my travel bucket list in reality, so it makes perfect sense that my alternate self would be going to this country more than once. I think my favourite piece from this look is the heavily detailed denim jacket, I mean c’mon just look at it! All those pins and chains, it looks punk rock but it’s not. It is elegant enough to pull off on top of a cute pink skirt and Louboutin spiked heels.
Tokyo Disneyland: The happiest place on Earth, of course I’m going to visit its Japanese counterpart many times if I could in reality and plenty in my alternate universe where money and time is no issue. The short sleeves and skirt though may be the wrong attire for Halloween in Japan because they are already heading into their colder months (whoops). The novelty aspect that I was going for in this LOTD was a lot of fun especially with the food theme jewellery- sushi earrings and gummi bears bracelet.
I forgot to make a Luci note in my blog on the 13th May that I was going to be away for two weeks with the parents. I am typing this up in the club lounge of my hotel in Waikiki, Honolulu, Hawaii! We have been here for the past week and it has been an amazing trip so far to just keep my head clear and to re-think while enjoying the sun and all that shopping, yes please!
Though my shopping hasn’t been too bad, I think it is because I am logically analysing each item rather than splurge buying and realising that I barely wear it. I am getting a bit of a tan and the past 3 days we trekked through Maui around rainforests, mud and seeing majestic waterfalls. Got back to Waikiki yesterday and this whole week is relaxing in the sun and checking out the stores.
Last night I raided H&M down the road from my hotel and today I am wearing one of the dresses I bought, bestie Katie from New York says I look fabulous, but that girl is always biased. I will see all of you again when I am back in cold Sydney, the weather back home makes me glad I am in sunny Hawaii!
Reblogging my second set of outfits for my alternate self
There is two new websites I joined that are aspiring to be like Polyvore, but I don’t know we’ll see how it goes. These outfits are what I would love to wear including places to visit, make-up to wear and accessories to carry with me at all times.
Been having a lot of fun making them and will be sharing three at a time.
Sparkle on: This is very Himegyaru or ‘Princess’ inspired fashion but it isn’t really because it bears more skin than what the girls wear in Japan. It’s an outfit I’d wear in London or Paris while drinking tea and writing up the next big novel (alternate universe anyway) or about to attend a meeting with the fashion magazines. This is very feminine and still keeping to my colour scheme of pink and black. My favourite pieces are the pink planner from Kikki K, the sushi badges and earrings and the bag from Moschino it matches with the corset of the same designer.
The Tango: Inspired by a chapter in the story I’m writing for my alternate self, it was a fun chapter to be written. She is back home in Los Angeles and getting dance classes for her brother’s upcoming wedding, what she didn’t realise is that her celebrity boyfriend has come by to visit on his return to work. They are paired off by the instructor and taught the tango. I went for simple but had to get a skirt that moves freely, it is made by Anthony Vaccarello. Shoes are Dolce & Gabanna’s cage heels, another favourite addition.
Writer: One of my favourite LOTD to make for myself, this is if I was at home in my apartment after a busy day working in the fashion magazine office and writing is my hobby to help relax my buzzing mind. Though the dress itself is quite expensive for just relaxing in (it is by Temperley London), I loved the idea of ruffled, loose dress along with the unicorn slippers which I have in real life too. The pink inflatable chair brings back a feeling of nostalgia as I used to have one back in the 90s when it was all the craze. Miso soup and Godiva cookies are a guilty pleasure to have on the desk while writing too.
Four days until my parents and I are flying to Hawaii for 2 weeks and despite the threat of volcano Kilauea going off on the Big island, so far we have no cancellations of our flight to either Honolulu or Maui.
We also had a recent scare, two nights ago of mum’s entropic heart giving her chest pains and she was taken to hospital. Thankfully she is back home and her usual hardworking self, I got home last night from work and she is sitting at her desk in the study already. I have been lazy with my writing this week and been either on Youtube or Netflix, I haven’t been going to bed early and I haven’t been sleeping well.
Long distance relationships can be difficult and I’m currently through a rough situation with my other half and figuring out where do we go from here. I want to keep fighting, but in all my years of dating online I am known to being stubborn and fighting for something or someone I love and believe in. Just wish he could see that through all my erratic explainations especially when my mind is so frazzled and scared of what’s going to happen to us.
Instead of doing positive likes this week and struggling to find something that is not repetitive, I decided to write my new bucket list for travelling since I have crossed off a couple of things from the list that I created when I was 12. I have been to Venice and ridden a gondala, been inside Versailles on the outskirts of Paris, bought my first (and only pair) of Christian Louboutin shoes in Waikiki, been inside St Peter’s Basilica in Rome, visited Kennedy Space Centre in Florida and seen a live volcano in Hawaii, now I have other things that I want to do in my travels.
- Go to Japan! This has been no.1 since forever, I discussed the notion of going there with my mum’s younger sister, Aunt Heather and she said she wouldn’t mind going while also offering advice on what to do while over there. Apparently a lot of them speak really good English.
- Glamping; I can’t do normal camping and my bestie Katie mentioned the idea. I looked it up in my country and there are some sites in Victoria. Probably wouldn’t go in winter months, too cold but the other seasons would be lovely. Just need someone to do it with.
- Go to Alnwick Castle, I been to Leavesden studio for the Harry Potter tour but I want to go to real locations set in the film, the castle is one of them. Returning to UK!
- Visit Hobbiton in the north island, New Zealand. This has been on my bucket list since I watched LOTR and Hobbit trilogy and it is not just one of the many locations in the north island that I wish to see, also reason to see my family again.
- Stay in Santorini in the Greek islands, picturesque holiday island in the Mediterranean, yes please!
When reality is too much, I run away into virtual and fantasy because it is the only thing that is stable and where my imagination can fly without concern.
That has been my thought pattern since last Friday, my moods come and go in great highs and terrible lows. I am back on Second Life, taking pictures in between my story writing too. The above picture is in Backdrop city and it was after I had seen the film Ready Player One, I found a gamer setting and was inspired to take a pic with my Moon bunnies by Half-deer. Top is Epoch, hair is Truh, garter is Dirty Stories, harness is Cynful.
This was the first photo I took when I returned to Second Life after a 1.5 month-ish break and though I do not get any high favourites like I used to do, I still have fun when the right spark smacks into me and gives me an idea for a photo. I am wearing Runaway hair, the bikini is by Vincue, earrings are Random Matter and the pose is Foxcity as always. I love to take photos inside my cottage, a lot of my acquaintances in-world have complimented at how pink and cute it is, when there is darkness brighten up a room!
I love the above photo and I think it’s because I surrounded myself in not only a very pink scene but I have groups of sleeping kittens around my avatar and bootchi’s can make anyone’s day better. It is is medically proven that in the company of a feline, you feel more relaxed and less stressed. Maybe that is why my Skitty has been in my room every evening before I go to bed. My outfit is purely made by Giz Seorn and bought at the latest Uber round.
Backdrops that are made by the designers in-world help me in a lot of ways, it saves me from hunting down picturesque sims for a photo, I can rez them on my land without being disturbed by others and they are usually really pretty backgrounds that can go well with my outfit. The above background is made by Foxcity, she has been making a lot of backdrops with her bento poses lately and I have been happily selecting my favourite ones. Dress is Candydoll, hair is Dela, necklace is Bauhaus movement and my Meowl is by Hextraordinary.